Happy Baby Month as my good friend Sophie texted me on the 1st of August! I cannot believe we are here! Baby Lucas expected arrival date is in 16 DAYS which really means that this could happen at any time now! All of you could be aunties and uncles and grandparents at any moment! And don’t worry! We will keep ya posted on our progress. Calen is ON IT!
Speaking of Calen, not to put words into his mouth but he seems pretty ready for this baby to be here. On top of making a list of people to call when the baby starts rollin in, he also has packed our hospital go bag. I came home to find the bag staring at me in the hallway last week and I have continued to ignore it. I feel like if I acknowledge that it’s there then this baby is going to know we are ready and head towards the light!!! In fact, I do NOT feel ready! I mean, how can one really feel ready for something like this? I am sure that I will be fine when the time comes, but not until then. I feel like I am in this weird holding pattern and that the floor is going to fall out beneath me at any moment. No…you know what I really feel like? I feel like I am on the Tower of Terror ride at California Adventure for the first time. I LOVE that ride! I have already stood in line in anticipation and excitement (that’s my 9 month pregnancy,) and now I am finally on the ride, knowing what is about to come…but not exactly. I mean, you get the jist just by watching the ride from below. It is going to take you to the top and then drop you. But you don’t know exactly what other “bumps” are going to come before you get to the big drop. Wow, this is ridiculous. But it is how I am feeling so go with me!
Last week I had a bump in the road. I haven’t been sleeping well and Braxton Hicks contractions have begun to set it. Because of my lack of sleep, I was emotionally and physically drained and Friday I was at the end of my rope. At work I couldn’t keep my eyes open and as I sat at my desk all I wanted to do was cry. I ended up leaving at 2PM and went home to sleep for the rest of the day. My sleeping pattern continued into Saturday taking naps every few hours and trying to regain my energy. But like I said, it was just a little bump that I wasn’t expecting and I started to catch my breath again. And today I am hitting another bump. Even as I write this, I have a massive headache and I am flip flopping back and forth between being extremely hot and freezing. But I am hanging in there. I HATE not knowing when the big “drop” is going to come, (ps I do realize how graphic and weird the word drop is here but oh well) but I know we are getting closer.
Calen as always is being more than wonderful…even if he did pack the dreaded bag. He is my strength when I come home from work and knowing he is there for me to lean on takes the world off of my shoulders. I am not in this alone, and my partner is ready, so even if I don’t feel ready he is going to get me through this…we are going to do this together. AND WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY SOON! Now THAT is exciting! His room is ready, we have all we think we need, and our love for him is already bubbling over.
So now we wait together friends. Any guesses on when he will be here and how much he is going to weigh and all of that stuff? Fill out your guesses here and we will see who is the closest! Click on the link below and in the upper left hand corner where it asks for the "Game Name" enter: CLucasGuess
Keep up those awesome prayers for our family as we come to a new chapter in this journey! Love you!
I am so going to win.
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