This blog post is one of those that sits in your head for a while until you can fully process what you want to say, and then when it comes time to spit it out, you are not sure if it is even going to come out right. But this is something that I have wanted to share for about a week and a half so here it goes!
BOYS. For most of my life boys were really of little interest to me. I had very little in common with them: I wasnt athletic, I didn’t love video games, I didn’t really like getting dirty or breaking rules, I watched sports but didn’t know any FAQ’s…the list goes on and on. But I think what it really comes down to is that I didn’t know how to just be myself around guys. I didn’t lack confidence or feel nervous around them, but I was just never comfortable like my sister always seemed to be! Haha!
But now I am having my own little boy and of course a bunch of thoughts and questions come up. How will I relate to this little guy? I am not athletic so will he think I am boring? How will I ever understand or relate to the things that he is going through?
But then I stop myself.
And what I really want to share with you is how I look around at the current men in my life and all of those fears melt away. I am surrounded with these amazing men, who I may not always be able to relate to, but they care for me and I care for them and that’s all that matters.
It all started with my Dad. He has always been a great example of unfailing love in my life. He embraced having two daughters who dance and sing and he has been supportive of me every step of my life. He showed me how to really love with how he loves my family and I hope that our little one can grow up seeing that in his Grandpa.
I have the most loving and wonderful husband who loves me as I am. Even if I may be a wet blanket at times, he knows how to push me to try new things and I am so grateful for him. He, for the first time in my life showed me love in a new way. A love that I never knew existed, and I know he is going to be the most wonderful role model for Baby Lucas. He is going to be THE BEST father.
Then there is Spencer. Calen’s best friend from college and family to the two of us. He has always made me feel welcome and comfortable. He has always looked out for me and I know that he will always be there for our family. Spence, if our baby has an ounce of your kindness in him, we will truly be blessed.
And of course we have the band guys Ryan, Brian, and Gareth. These guys make rock hard, but they are softies! Sorry to ruin your image guys. Haha! I know that each of them cares so about Calen and I and it touches my heart the way that they really want to protect our family and make sure that our little guy has everything he needs. I don’t know if the three of you read this, but I hope you know that I feel so blessed to have you each in my life and I know that our little man is going to think you all are the coolest!
Then there are all of you guys out there who have been my friends throughout so many different parts of my life. I can think of so many names and faces that have molded and shaped me into the person I am today and how you are so special to me. I hope to take a piece of what I have learned from each of you and instill that in the little guy…with all of that he will be unstoppable! Look out ladies!
Am I even making a point anymore! Haha! What I am trying to say is that I HOPE and PRAY that our little man grows up to be like each of the men in my life—Loving, caring, goofy, strong, driven, intelligent, talented, handsome, happy, and God loving. Thank you for being a part of my life and for walking with Calen and I through this journey. I can’t wait for baby to meet all of these special men who are going to be such wonderful influences on his life.
